The moon's icy cold, silver stare continues to mock me,
As the waves of guilt and horror,
Consume every fibre of my being,

There's a nothingness that exists,
Where my heart used to be,
Because that heart has gone,
Away from me,
And alone with you,

I'm sorry,
With the heaviest of hearts I am sorry,
To be alone with you,
Is a wish and a curse,

The one begotten son.

Sometimes

Sometimes I enjoy wallowing in my own self pity. Sometimes I just want to stop. I actually have noone to talk to about this. Sure there are people who would offer advice, comfort, but noone who would just listen, listen and hug. Today was hug an actor/techie/theatre geek day. That's me on 3 legit fronts. How many hugs did I get? One, it was a good hug but still, ONE! Hug denials are horrible and I had one of those too. The internet is not my friend. I cannot deal with living through it. I need human contact. Every time I get home and I sit in this flat all alone I get so lonely. Does anyone care? Probably not. Is anyone even reading this? Even less likely.

Next year is going to be so much better. Every evening around lots of people. I get so lonely. :(

Just how far would you go for those that you care about?

Flobots - Survival Story

Unsure what I make of it. The lyrics feel more forced without some of the subtlety and story telling of the first album. There's not enough viola melted in to the mix either with it feeling separate whenever it makes an appearance.

That said some of the bass lines are nice and funky with a full sound. Andy Guerrero seems to be channeling Tom Morello in places which is nothing to complain about and Tim McIlrath's guest appearance is a bonus, although he could have been better utilised.

There isn't enough varying dynamics in there for me which was something that I loved about their debut. The only songs that seem to try and end the cycle of heavy track after heavy track are stuck near the end and feel like they've been tacked on. 'Superhero' is the only track that has any real dynamic variation for me, though I may notice more on subsequent listens.

After all that I don't think there is anything that comes close to 'Mayday' or 'Anne Braden' from Fight With Tools and that is a shame. I also didn't notice anything that could recieve nearly as much airtime as 'Handlebars'. Not that I mind that so much, I hated that song until I properly listened to the lyrics which, and call me a pretentious skeptic if you like, I imagine most people who loved the track never noticed.