I don't know where I'm going with this

3am and I'm not sleeping,

4am and I'm not dreaming

5am and the sun's coming up,

6am and I've had enough,

There's a bird at my window singing this song,

There's a cat outside that won't shut the fuck up,

The neighbour's dogs are at it again,

And soon their kids will join in the fun,

There's a hole in my head the size of a fist,

There's a hole in my chest the size of a heart,

Lungs are bleeding and nictotine's racing,

But we will just go on playing our part,

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck,

3am and I'm not sleeping,

4am and I'm not dreaming

5am and the sun's coming up,

6am and I've had enough,

My bedroom's littered with bottles and cans,

Ash and smoke fill the air,

Seeping poison,

You just don't care,

Drenched in sweat surfing the net,

Two parts Caffiene, One part blood,

I will lick these wounds,

And our end will come soon,

3am and I'm not sleeping,

4am and I'm not dreaming

5am and the sun's coming up,

6am and I've had enough,

7am and my housemates are up... I don't know where I'm going with this

I see her, I need her, I'd keep her, I'll lose her.

Pop Culture Cliche

(I wonder if you can tell who this might be a stab at )

You just don't get it,

You stupid fucking hypoctrite,

Alternative culture,

You need a suture,

With you what you see is what you get,

Little Britain quotes,

And stupid floppy hair,

You think you look so different but you all look the same,

You and your little cliques can go fuck yourselves,

Cause you're a pop culture cliche,

Always going this same way,

I see you every day,

I'll never forgive you, I'll never forget you,

MORON!

*spoken*

You're less alternative than my dad,

You're more mainstream than my mum,

Take your stupid meaningless lo cal fake rock,

And shove it up your jock,

Strap.

Bitch.

1 Pink Balloon

Honour her, keep her,

Honour him, keep him,

The issue's not the gender,

It's in their stupid heads,

When ignorance and bigotry,

Are overriding fact,

When lies breed more lies,

And they change their tack,

When they call you free,

Then throw their shit so far it sticks like a piece of gum,

And you're left feeling a lone and useless,

It's a scam, it's a falsity,

It's a facade, it's a fake,

There is no choice to make,

It's the way you were born,

They don't understand,

And they'll always be forlorn,

Brotherhood, sisterhood,

We stand together, they stand divided,

If they are right,

Then it feels good to be wrong.

If ever

You have felt worthless. If ever you have felt you don't match up to people's expectations. If ever you thought you were too fat or too thin, or that your nose was too big or that your cock was too small or any other such fucking bullshit like that, you are not alone. Millions of others go through the exact same fears and concerns as you. The simple fact is that we are all different, we all have our own uniqueness about ourselves and there is nothing we can do to change that.

Watch this video... it's the song/music video that launched my love affair with, what is now, one of the most important bands in my life: both creatively and emotionally.

http://www.clevver.com/music/video/17559/antiflag-this-is-the-end-for-you-my-friend.html

Another Episode

fuck.

Maybe I do need help

Territorial Gains

First off the track by track review of 21st century breakdown isn't going to happen. First I cba and second my opinion changes every time I listen to it.

In a nutshell it's got some great songs, some songs that could have been good, and some shit.

All in all a bit of a meh album.

I was gonna now write a poem called Territorial Gains (hence the title) but have got cold feet now. So here's my idea for a first album track listing for a band:

Insert Band Name Here - Our First Album

1. Introduction (everyone has one nowadays)
2. The Album Starts Here
3. The First Single
4. We aren't quite sure about this song
5. Filler Track 1
6. Filler Track 2
7. The Really Heavy One in the Middle That Everyone Loves
8. Filler Track 3
9. The Second Single
10. The Acoustic One.
11. The Closer
12. Ten Minutes of Silence
13. That fucking hidden track that wakes you up if you fall asleep listening to this record!

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 In a more serious train of thought these are the titles for songs I'm writing atm:

Pop Culture Cliche

1 Pink Balloon

Lancashire Calling

I Don't Know Where I'm Going With This

- There were two others but I've forgotten them.

Peace, Love, Unity.

XxxxXxxxX

Just Briliant!

This made me laugh so hard.

Review of 21st Century Breakdown coming tomorrow... so far I'm unimpressed. :(

David Mamet, you genius!

Way to make me feel fucking good about myself and, in danger of inflating my depressingly flat ego these days, I would like to draw your attention to the following!

"If you decide to be an actor, stick to your decision.The folks you meet in supposed positions of authority -- critics, teachers, casting directors -- will, in the main, be your intellectual and moral inferiors. They will lack your imagination, which is why they become bureaucrats rather than artists; and they will lack your fortitude, having elected institutional support over a life of self-reliance. They spend their lives learning lessons very different from the ones you lean, and many or most of them will envy you and this envy will express itself as contempt. It's a cheap trick of unhappy people, and if you understand it for what it is, you need not adopt or be overly saddened by their view of you. It is the view of the folks on the verandah talking about the lazy slaves."

David Mamet - True and False - 1998 - p. 110

I think this can be true of any artist of any background: writer; musician; painter; sculptor; designers; etc. etc.

Remember kids, always follow your dreams, ignore the naysayers, follow them!

Peace, Love, Unity.

XxxxXxxxX

Acting

"Find your mark, look the other fellow in the eye, and tell the truth"

- James Cagney